Since I am packing up my things this week and getting ready to head to my new home in Scottsdale, I was looking at quotes about change today. I really like this one by C. JoyBell C.
“The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself.”
― C. JoyBell C.
As I prepare myself to move myself out of my home of over 2 years where I have lived with my partner Chris Whitcoe and his 3 beautiful children, I feel mixed emotions. Change is exciting, but at the same time, I have felt loved here, safe here, accepted and welcomed here. It is because of Chris and our love for each other that I ended up here in Patagonia. I love this little town with the gorgeous mountain views, red breasted robins, hawks, hummingbirds, javelinas (wild pigs), rattle snakes, beautiful hiking trails, like minded raw foodies who reside at or near the Tree of Life Rejuvenation Center, my own little downtown shop where I sell my raw food products and meet visitors and locals, Red Mountain Health Food store , owned by Annie and Berry which carries fresh produce and everything I need to make fresh foods and juices at good prices, all the wonderful, openhearted people in this town who accepted me so readily when I moved here 2 years ago and was still deeply grieving the death of my son Dominic. I will miss all of this. I know that I will be able to come back any time I want since Scottsdale is only 3 1/2 hours away, but it won’t be the same. I just feel a sense of sadness as I prepare to leave this cozy little nest where I have spent the last 2 years starting my culinary academy with Chris, opening my brick and mortar store right in the downtown area, going to and holding many, many raw food parties, sharing walks and talks about our hopes and dreams with my partner Chris. As he and I begin to part ways (I leave in three days), we have been feeling sad about not living together anymore, and we are treating each other with extra love and tenderness which makes leaving even harder. We will continue to create amazing things together and still be in each others lives, it will just be less often and from a distance. Who knows what the future holds, but whatever it is, I know it will be exactly what we both require for fulfilling our life purposes.
What awaits me in Scottsdale is a big, beautiful and spacious home in the McDowell Mountain Ranch. I will be sharing the house with Chris Sopa (yes, her name is Chris too!) who is a life coach, a reiki master, a spiritual guide and so much more. She and I will be great roommates and I know our lives will both be better as a result of living together. Chris W. has been friends with Chris S. for years and he introduced me to her. We were great friends from the very first day we met. Right now, as I type this, she is driving from the East coast to our new home in Scottsdale with everything she owns in a moving van, so it’s a new beginning for both of us.
What I am loving about moving to this new area is that I will be able to connect with so many more people. I will be able to teach classes regularly, do one on one consulting for people who want to create a new diet, kitchen, lifestyle or all of the above. I will be able to create a hub or permanent home for Pure Joy Culinary Academy (although we still do plan to take it to Europe and Asia 2x a year). Wow, so many new opportunities.
If you read my blog when I moved last time, (April of 2010) you may remember that I was on week 2 of what turned out to be an 84 day juice fast (beginning on March 21st and ending on June 12). Well, true to form once again I have been fasting for the past 2 days in preparation for this move. I don’t know how long I will fast for, but one thing I know is that when I am not sure how to define my emotions, or even what I am feeling exactly or why I am feeling it, I usually find myself using food to soothe the uneasiness which never works because I just feel worse after eating more than I need or making choices that don’t serve me. Fasting is a way to experience my emotions better. I actually find that when I am fasting, my emotions are much softer, kinder and gentler on me. I don’t feel that niggling depressive sadness that I can’t explain, and I am actually motivated to keep moving forward and to get things done. Today I’m finishing up day 2. I have my fridge stocked with green juices consisting of celery, cucumber and kale, and a little fresh squeezed OJ on the side to keep myself from going too deeply and quickly into a detox (the sugar from the fruit slows down the cleansing reactions of tiredness and spaciness).
Phoenix is hot, hot, hot this time of year, so that will be interesting to say the least. I think the fasting and juicing will also come in handy to keep me from getting overheated. It’s my secret weapon against heat. I’ll tell you more about that later.
For now, I’m going back to my packing.