Dominic 1 year ago
Today is Christmas Day, 2009. Dominic and I spent it in the UCSF Hospital in San Francisco. It is not what either of us had planned, but it seems that at this moment, this is where we are.
It’s been a very rough week for both of us. We returned home from Florida one week ago after having visited Hippocrates Health Institute. Dominic got a very serious infection somehow and we have been residents in either a Florida or California Hospital for the last 2 weeks. He has been in extreme pain, been suffering with fevers and intestinal pain, and now is on a dry fast because there is a possibility his colon could rupture…which would be other than good. Needless to say, Dominic is suffering. And through all the suffering, he continues to keep a good attitude and keeps thinking of going home and having his life with family and friends. I am in awe of his strength and perseverance. He is a true superhero, whose power is inner strength and a positive outlook.
I have a few alternative therapies I’d like to try with him. We have talked to Dr. Young in San Diego about his program of sodium bi-carb and alkalizing the body which sounds very promising. And since Dominic is way too sick to leave the hospital or travel now, we are going to see a Dr. Rowen in Santa Rosa on Monday as a closer alternative who has also had great successes with cancer using IV therapies such as ozone and vitamin C. Dr. Rowen comes recommended to us by Dr. Lodi who runs An Oasis of Healing in Mesa, Arizona, whom I have been speaking with about Dominic.
You know, it’s funny, because no matter how many plans and schemes I have come up with, they seem to keep getting thwarted in some way or another. The harder I fight and rebel against what is happening (i.e. medical treatment) the more sick Dominic seems to get and the more hopeless it seems to even have him well enough to leave the hospital to try these things. I was so determined to get him out of here 2 days before Christmas and was so close to having him out the door, when his oncologist got really aggressive with me about the possibility of him dying over the weekend of septic shock before we could even see anyone alternative to help us.
In the end, although I am getting so many great ideas and advice from so many wonderful and caring people, they are not here to help me, and it’s just me and I choose to do what is going to make Dominic feel comfortable in the moment, not run out of here with a scheme while not having the tools or the help to pull it off alone. It’s really, really scary!!!! I truly would never wish these kinds of decisions on anyone.
So as I look deep into my heart and continue to send up prayers for guidance, the answer that I keep getting is “Everything is happening just as it should. There is no one way and there is no right or wrong, black or white. What you are doing in this moment is loving your boy with all of your heart and soul. Your intentions are set and you know that you are being divinely guided. So stop the struggle and just keep holding this vision of Dominic healing in your mind and in your heart and you will be lead, and all will be well. All is well now. In this moment, all is well, and now is all you have, so be here and love here and stop thinking you are doing it wrong and just let go of the struggle. You are loved, Dominic is loved and all is well.”
So my friends, I wish you all peace in your hearts on this holy day. I wish you love, and I wish for you to know that you are Blessed. Just as I am blessed, and Dominic is blessed. None of us know what the future holds, or how long we are going to stay in these earthly bodies, so count your Blessings, and make the most of this life!!!!! Just make the most of this life!