This post is all about surrender.
Today is December 13, 2009. We are on our 15th day at Hippocrates Health Institute.
Today I am realizing that everything needs to happen in its own time. A body cannot be forced to do something it’s not ready to do, even deep cleansing. It has it’s own intelligence which must be honored. I also realize that my body responds differently than Dominic’s body to everything! I will now apply that bit of wisdom to my future encounters. We are all so unique and different and what works for one may not work for all.
I had way too much ego when I came here. I see that now. I came here thinking I was going to save the day (along with Brian Clement). I have been so humbled by this experience. As the 2 weeks have progressed, I’ve seen Dominic get weaker and sicker. He can’t keep the green juice down, nor really anything for that matter except for his morning and evening wheatgrass shots. Last night and this morning though, not even those are passing his pale little lips. He sleeps most of the day. He takes morphine, sometimes 2 times a day for the pain in his leg and hip where the leukemia seems to be growing. I’ve talked to so many wise and loving people like Brian and Anna Marie Clement, Viktorus Kulvinskas, Dr. Thomas Lodi, and the list goes on and on. There are many things we can try, and many things we are actually doing at the moment. And there are more things we will surely do.
There have been so many beautiful people who have sent me gifts of superfoods such as Barley Max (thank you Raw Truck Driver Dave and friends), and Blue green algae, a BEMER, and more, more, more! Thank you everyone. It is the love, compassion and thoughtfulness which is doing the most healing of all. The financial donations have continued to pour in, and I am so very grateful to all of you who have rushed to our aid to help in Dominic’s healing. A BEMER was overnight FED EX’d to us on Saturday which is a bio-energetic mat that will help boost Dominc’s immune system and balance his energy, and, according to the literature, a lot more. All the love, prayers and well wishes are uplifting my spirits on a daily basis. For this energy healing I am eternally grateful!!!
Dominic’s Dad and Step Mom are here visiting this weekend for the second time since our stay here. It is wonderful to have them here. Without their physical and emotional support I don’t know how I would be getting through all of this. Dominic loves his dad so much and always perks up when he is around so it is a healing just to have him here.
Tuesday December 15th
So here we are 17 days after arriving, when I thought Dominic would be getting a lot better. I had this idea that he would come here and start eating all the food, drinking the juices, doing the therapies, and poof!, transform into his old, healthy self. This has not happened yet. In fact, because he is still so weak, we feel it is best to come back home now so he can be closer to friends and loved ones in his own surroundings. So, today we are flying home.
I choose to surrender with my entire being. Surrender to the fact that I don’t know the grand design. Surrender to the best possible outcome for all involved. Surrender to Dominic’s internal intelligence and his soul’s knowing. Surrender to letting go of thinking I know how things should go. In essence, I surrender to the Highest Power.
We have been up, we have been down, we feel wrung out like wet dish towels and hung to dry. But our spirits are still high and we are still hopeful that a miracle could happen at any moment. Dominic is in good spirits today and told me this morning that he knows he’s going to get better. As always, we are hopeful. The trip home is tonight at 7:30. His step mom booked us the first row on Jet Blue, and I pray that we can get home with Dominic being as comfortable as possible and that it is an effortless and easy flight. We need to use a wheelchair as Dominic is too weak to walk anywhere or even stand for that matter.
Again, thank you all so much for your love and prayers. I’ve never experienced anything like this in my life! There has been a worldwide circulation of Dominic’s story, and I’ve been contacted by people in Japan, Australia, New Zealand, Costa Rica and the world over. The love is circling the globe. Cherie Soria and Dan Ladderman of Living Light Culinary Arts Institute have been instrumental in raising funds for us. I am exceptionally grateful for their help and continued support. This is a true story of love, hope and compassion in the highest form.
I love you all!!!!!